Reading is Sexy
I want this shirt.
The Utah Wedding

Here are Danny and Anna’s Wedding Photos, some taken by me and some taken by Joe. It was so great to see most of my family. And it was Joe’s first intro to a Mormon wedding: beautiful, white and with no drunken people. My newphew Danny is such a great person and he found an equally great person to marry. I love it when that happens.
Union Station
The pregnant girl in her early twenties came through the open doors on my right from the courtyard where the fountain tiled to look like snakeskin was happily spurting water in the air. She was in black stretch pants and a white cotton shirt with a drawstring at the neck. Her curling brown hair was piled high on her head in a loose clasp and fell down on her forehead and around her neck in places where it had become unruly and rebellious.
She had one hand stretched around to support her back and the other clutching an overstuffed duffle purse that was once cream or white but was now a shade of dirt. Union Station was busy and she looked focused on her objective of getting in the bathroom line.
The older woman came from the bathroom and headed directly for her. The woman’s right knee had no locking mechanism and subsequently with every step went much too far backwards and made her lurch instead of walk. It was clear they didn’t know each other from the look on the girls face. (more…)
Rebellion
Proving once again that I’ll do just about everything the way I want and not how you tell me.

Or really, I’m just not paying that close of attention…..
Sometimes
Sometimes I can’t catch my breath even though I’m breathing fine.
The panting starts in the back of my head then moves to my heart
and I feel it creeping down my arms and legs.Sometimes I can’t see even though my eyes are working.
They are open and I’m looking outwards but all I see is inside
and I feel it creeping down my neck and back.Sometimes I can’t make words even though my speech is great.
The words form in my head but don’t reach the outside air
and they lay stuck like dry bread in my throat.Sometimes I can’t feel anything even while I’m touching.
My fingers stroke and then grab and I know there should be sensations
but they die and get lost before they reach my heart.Sometimes I can’t hear you when I can still hear other things.
The sounds fly nearby my ears and I wait for them to penetrate
but the noises get whisked away and I miss the love you breathed to me.
Wishing all the best to Dooce.
Passenger
A man on the train sitting ahead a few rows and across the isle talks to his friend and laughs with gusto. He’s mid fifties. His clothes, gut and hairline have seen better afternoons. He’s tired and creased. He smiles tightly and pulls his very full lips across his large teeth. His gaze strays from his buddy’s face only when females walk by. The people come stumbling from behind him from the sway of the train and he instinctively ignores all men. He senses a female of the species and his eyes quickly snap to her backside then jump down to her shoes and then back up to her bottom within a second. He doesn’t take in hair color. He doesn’t care about her blouse. Only the ass and shoes. I see his teeth when the women have on heels.
Consequences
When you’re walking somewhere, like to board a train in LA that’s headed to San Diego for example, and you’re in a hurry but the person in front of you is not but you think that by getting in their personal space and walking a quarter shoe length behind them will inspire them to walk faster for you, you have a really good chance of running into them…hard…if, for example, they should stop suddenly to do something, like change direction, which incidentally is perfectly within the realm of possibility if the bar car is behind me. And if you follow me so closely next time I’ll kick you in the shin.
Part Three
I almost missed the third time he asked me. He slipped a slice of tomato on my finger which looked and felt strange and funny. I was laughing too hard to answer but I managed a muffled sound of some kind which he took as in the affirmative. It will be nice when I get a ring made of metal but I think I’m going to miss the tomatoes.
Segue
One way to do a smooth change of subject:
“Heh-heh-heh-hennyway….”
Just the Three of Us
Here is the painting from the Skin Deep/eating disorder show the other night by The Healthy Within Foundation. I hear they raised over 3k. That’s hot.

Part Two
The second time he asked me it was 10:42 on a Sunday evening.
We had gone to an afternoon movie using passes we got as a present last Christmas. We had forgotten about them all these months and today was the perfect day to use them. When we exchanged the passes for two tickets to ‘Garden State’ the guy behind the counter also handed us a surplus fiver. Score.
(more…)
Part One
The first time he asked me we were in Krispy Kreme. I’d never seen the way the doughnuts were made and he wanted to show me. When I asked him why, he said, ‘Because I want to experience things with you.’
We watched the small dough rings on their journey from being newly gutted all the way to the liquid sugar glaze. Then we got our free samples. Some of the freshly oil-dunked doughnuts got stuck on one another and didn’t cook properly. I worried over someone getting the ‘duds’ out of there before they wasted sugar. (more…)
Open Letter
Dear sweet, sweet girls in theater 12,
Let’s get together real soon and plan a way (perhaps an online calendar of some sort) that will ensure, for all time, hence forth, that you both and I will never, and I mean ever, be in the same theater seeing the same movie at the same time again. Ever.
You, my nubile adolescent estrogen packages, are what my mom used to call ‘publicly inappropriate.’ “Don’t be publicly inappropriate like those girls over there.” my mom would whisper loudly to me. “See how everyone is looking at them? That man actually rolled his eyes! Those girls think they are being cute but actually, everyone wishes they would leave.” And she was right. I really, REALLY wished you would leave. (more…)
Today's Ask leahpeah Letter
Dear Leahpeah,
I read the interview they did about you on Writers Monthly. It’s really awesome that you have found a way to live with your other personalities. So, a little about me: I see a therapist 2 times a week. He thinks I might be MPD. He told me that I got mental problems from my parents and that these things are hereditary alot. I don’t want to blame my parents. I don’t want to have MPD. Do you agree?
Sincerely,
Maybe More the One
New Rochelle, NY
Hello MMtO,
Wow. It sounds like you have a lot of new information to digest. It’s probably going to be awhile until you feel ‘settled’ again. I’m not a therapist or phycologist but having gone through many years of therapies and learning how to self-therapize, I hope what I say to you will be helpful and not hurtful. I’m not one to sugar-coat things. Please feel free to take what helps and discard what doesn’t. (more…)
The Short List
Girl in the red vinyl miniskirt on El Cajon Boulevard = sexy. Because when she bent down I saw the holes in her white cotton panties.
Shirtless guy in the El Camino in Hillcrest = hot. Because when he lifted up his arm to tap his roof to the beat of Sir Mix-A-Lot – Baby Got Back I saw the white deoderant chunks in his pit hair.
The gas sation on University = supah sexy. Because I haven’t seen gas below $2.00 per gallon in months.
Olympics
How ’bout those Olympics, eh? I’m totally mesmerized for a few hours every night. According to the chip count, the USA has more medals than anyone else but China has 2 more Gold at the moment.
There are 28 sports. Firsts for me to watch this year are fencing and synchronized diving. Who knew?
And those tiny Romanian girls doing gymnastics…! Yeesh. There is some kinda power in those legs.
Tiny factoid: Gymnastics is one of the oldest Olympic sports. It has always been a part of the ancient, as well as the modern Olympic Games. The term �gymnastics� derives from the Greek word �gymnos�, meaning naked.
God, Therapy and Acne
We watched Agnes of God and How to Get Ahead in Advertising during the same day. Ahead gets 6.6/10ths stars while Agnes gets 6.3/10ths. Not a huge difference except I would have made it about 3 stars worth. That is not to say that I didn’t enjoy Agnes because I did. I love Meg Tilly. I love her when she’s airheady and wacky and I loved her serious and troubled. But I didn’t love the therapy/psychiatrist character played by Jane Fonda. Sure, she tugged at my heartstrings all the way through the blood spontaneously spurting out of Meg/Agnes’ palms but it was such an unrealistic portrayal of how real therapy works. Especially the hypnotherapy scene. The fact that it’s an almost 20 year old movie is the only reason I give it any merit at all.
However, Ahead, written and directed by Bruce Robinson (In Dreams , Killing Fields), is so clever and funny and stupid–just like real life–that I was drawn in immediately. Richard E. Grant (Henry and June, The Portrait of a Lady, and best of all, the British series The Scarlet Pimpernel) as Denis Dimbleby Bagley is brilliant. The ending was a little hollow when he gets all speachy but it’s great that the wrong ‘head’ lives on instead of a nice and easy pat ending. And the therapy scene was much more true to reality. How do you beat a story about a giant talking zit?
Office Space
I was only in the copy room for less than 5 minutes. When I got back to my desk, arms full of papers, something looked different but I couldn’t place my finger on it. I set the stack of papers down on the cluttered desk and then realized what it was. My chair was gone.
I looked over the cubicle and down the isle to the room center and the common work stations. I saw the man, right hand up to partially block his face from my view. “Well.” I thought, “He must have not been able to find a chair and kept looking until he found this one.” I walked down the isle towards him and saw empty chairs on my left and on my right. Huh. So, that therory isn’t really going to hold water. “Well, maybe he really had some heavy work to get done and it’s the only chair that ergonomically is right for his back.” I was really trying hard to cut the guy some slack.
And then I saw that mine was one of triplet chairs in the common area right next to him. One of them would have bitten his knee if he’d given it a sidelong glance. Only they were blue and mine was black. Ah. He only likes black. But his shirt was blue. And he was checking concert listings on the internet so the hard work thought wasn’t right either. I tried to catch his eye as I scooped up the sibling chair and pushed it past him back to my cubicle but he kept his face covered and only peeked at me from in between his first and second fingers. I guess I’ll never know what made him want to only sit in that particular chair. I’ll never know what made it worth the extra effort to stakeout my comings and goings so he could swipe it covertly while I copied.
Maybe just because it’s the chair that touched my butt.
Please don’t take my Swingline stapler.




